Tuesday, December 15, 2015

This Post is No Fun

There's only one thing worse than not blogging, and that's not blogging because you have nothing to blog about. You may have noticed a large dip in the amount of posting I've done. It's not you--it's me. At first, adding a second child into my routine/life wasn't too bad. Newborns really do sleep a lot (it's SO awful but it is true...comparatively). But age has caught up with both AB and Baby H. Nap time, that most sacred time to any stay at home mom, is elusive. AB is almost 4 and doesn't nap every day. Thus, she is awake and loud and temperamental when I need the baby to sleep. "Nap time ping-pong" is what I call it, bouncing between children so that they sleep in 20 minute increments.


No surprise, but sewing has taken such a backseat that it's not even in the vehicle anymore. I think I've made one garment in the last month. I've stopped buying patterns. I've stopped buying fabric. I've stopped reading blogs. And obviously, I've stopped blogging myself.


This is not even mentioning the weeks I've spent sick this fall. I swear I'm going to start sending AB to preschool in a bubble.


It's not fun. It's not glamorous. But it is a season. I waver between packing it all up and forcing myself to forget sewing, and feverishly ignoring my housework so I can find ten minutes of sanity. Like all parts of mothering, it's mostly an exercise in expectations.

Can I sew as much as I used to? No. Not even by half.

Can I blog? No. What is there to blog if I'm not sewing?

These are hard realizations. Sewing found me at a time in my life when I was redefining my identity. It's been a passion for almost four years. The thought of putting that on hold, however temporarily...sucks.


You may think that you're raising children, but really, becoming a mother means raising yourself quite a bit as well.

So it's time for adulting. That terror of terrors. Time to pull back on me and focus on my family. When your plate is too full, you have to take some things off. That's just how it is. And I like sleep, when I can get it.


If you see less of me in this corner of the internet, please forgive me. It's not that I don't want to be here. I just can't right now, emphasis on the right now.

Use your best Arnold voice..."I'll be back."

9 comments:

  1. I will miss your posts, but I get this. Truly madly deeply.

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  2. It is always good to take a step back and refocus, it allows us to get back to center and prioritize what truly is important. May the force be with you and your kids give you a break!

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  3. To every time there is a season and you've already realized that this is the season for parenting. Believe me when I say you will regain your me-time and sewing-time though it may seem very far away to you right now. And when it comes again, it will be in a different shape because your life and responsibilities are different. But it WILL return. Stay strong and love on your girls.

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  4. Please keep bobbing in if only to update on you and the family. We miss you K xXx

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  5. It gets better, I promise. I didn't sew at all for several years when my kids were little, but now they are older they can amuse themselves (or be sent off to do music practice/homework) and I have my sewing time back. I look forward to reading whatever you can fit in, whenever. No apology necessary!

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    1. Thank you for your comment, I'm glad to know there's hope for the future!

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  6. As a mom who had 4 under 10 at one point, I really understand. I love your posts and will look forward to them when you can. Have you tried letting your oldest not nap but lay down and read or listen to an audio book while baby sleeps? It worked for me:) Hugs,

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